Desperate for Healing

Ever been desperate for something or someone that you do something drastic or...desperate. "Desperate times call for desperate measures!" As Pastor Shane would say. I agree. The church can't just keep going like it always has....and Christians can't just do what we've always done. We need God like never before in this country and in our world....But when will we actually be desperate for God to move...when will we be ready to quit playing games and get serious with God? What is God going to have to do to you or in your life for you to get serious. After all we are here for God and to proclaim His Truth to stand firm because truth doesn't change. But I've blogged about this topic before so let's get into desperate for healing. 

Boy how many of us are desperate for some kind of healing these days? I know we don't always get healing or relief because God has other plans for us and we don't always get God on that...we just have to trust He knows what He's doing and He can use us as is. God will heal us one day if we are a believer in Him but for now we walk with pain and problems. 

But how desperate are we really for healing? Are we willing to go through a very hard journey? To give up many things we love? To go against our flesh? To be in constant battle? To always be attacked and exhausted? To go after something so much and not even know if it's achievable! To spend time effort lack of sleep and research just in hopes to gain an answer?  I'd say, you know how it is to be desperate.

So here's why I am desperate for healing...my health keeps getting worse and worse every year. I now have been diagnosed with RA, Fibromyalgia, chronic Fatigue and Lupus not to mention uti's and migraines. This year my health is at an all time low and I fear if it keeps up like this I soon will not be able to work, ride my horses, help Mom around the house do horse ministry or do anything or have any quality of life because of the overwhelming amount of pain and inflammation currently in my body. I know I look normal...but is it normal to be in pain just standing up? Is it normal to have no motivation to get out of bed cuz you'll know you'll really be in pain once you try to move your body.  

My hemotology results were praise the Lord no new disorders but Im at a triple high threat to getting blot clots...more labs and another Dr. Visit to follow in 4 weeks.  So adding a baby aspirin to my daily pills to help keep blood from clotting. Being only 32, and unable to walk without pain and do things because I'm so exhausted and not having Drs know what to do for me or worse making me worse, I hit my desperate for health mode.  I told the doctor, I'm too young to not be able to walk and do things without pain sometimes very intense pain! Pain gets to you... physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.  I began to research and pray and beg God for help...I also recruited any person to pray for me that I knew would. Then I just had to wait for God to move. 

I'm not the desperate type. I like being lazy when it comes to health. I don't want any restrictions. I'm already sick shouldn't I at least have some comfort food like chocolate and peanut butter? Don't I deserve to have tasty stuff when my body is so in pain and sick...that's my right right? For awhile God has been calling me to something I just haven't known what? Or maybe I just didn't want to do it. But when your health is rapidly declining and there arent many suggestions besides let's switch big meds...you get desperate for better answers. 

 God has led me to try the Carnivore diet. It's where you only eat meat and animal products. No fruit no sugar no carbs no gluten no dairy no veggies no nothing just meat. Currently, this is Day 4. I'm just eating beef. salt. and water right now. Is it hard? Yes but living in pain everyday from low to severe is quite motivating!!! Long story short. My research says that 56percent of the people who tried this diet had autoimmune diseases and out of that percentage 89 percent said they resolved there disease or experienced significant pain and inflammation relief.  Another study shows that back in the 1800s or 1900s Dr. Salisbury told his RA patients if you want to go into remission eat red meat and hence we have Salisbury steak named after this doctor. Apparently, this treatment was way more common and helped but I never was told about it in fact quite the opposite...to stay away from red meat!

Obviously I don't know if this will help as I'm only on Day 4 but I'm praying God can heal me through this because I can not keep doing life with this pain and all these health problems! I desire a better quality of life...I want to want to get out of bed! I want to do more for God and not be exhausted! I want to be able to get on my horse without struggle and stay on her without pain! I want to keep a job and work hard like a horse gal needs too! I want to have the energy and health to be around for my family and friends!  So I'll probably add to this list of reasons why I have have MUST stick to this limiting diet and punch cravings and shoot temptations because so much is at steak..hmm pun intended but in all seriousness my health is bad and that's not funny.  Please pray for me. That I can resist temptation stay true to this diet and my body would heal or feel better soon.  I'm desperate for healing. Desperate to touch the hem of His garment. I don't know where I'll find myself at the end of this journey. Healed or still very sick. I just know that God knows I'm desperate for Him and I'm proving it by throwing an idol away in my life...food.